So now its been a week since I have been resolving every evening that tomorrow is going to be a new day and suddenly I will be filled with a certain insurmountable energy to chalk out every single hour of my day-that tomorrow is just never arriving.

My suspicion tells me that the onus is on me' i  need to make that move where I say I am taking charge. But it all appears so impossible when I look at it right now. I mean imagine I have no idea by how much I did not make through the first round. Then there are evolved souls who say all that does not matter, stop thinking of your past, just give it all you have...then I wonder is 'all that I have' good enough this time?

Sometimes I feel I have too much on my plate, one is my job which may I please inform, I really enjoy. Second is my agenda for this examination and thirdly my squash lessons which I also enjoy. Naturally these are peppered from time to time with concerns on whether or not I should sit for the exam? Will my boyfriend crack it? Will I be with him? Would I marry him? and a strange series of the following realizations:

My parents are some of the coolest ones around.

This time that I have where I practically have no concerns will never come back to me

My parents are becoming old.

My sister is still a bit young.

I want to decorate my house and host some dinner parties

I want to be known for some meaningful work even in a small way.

So as of now till I touch 30, I must make all efforts to do what I believe will make me happier.  If I haven't

done it by then , well then I wont do it for some time to come! or Not maybe....!!









done it by then