The last few days have gone by, as if hurried by. There were ever so slight peaks into understanding human nature, the ways of the world, my darling sister left for Mumbai, my boss took credit for my groundwork without even flapping an eyelid, my boyfriend left for his hometown for the exams he is to sit for, one of my girlfriends is proverbially in the wrong place at the wrong time and my mind has been in a zone of subtle restlessness.

So I dug deep into the recesses of my mind, in an attempt to recollect a particularly hard time when taking a decision seemed all but impossible. I did find something to give me solace- the I-Ching.

What it is? How it works? Is not mine to answer. Infact I do not wish to divulge more into this -

So as a consequence of much activity I have been unable to achieve much in terms of my preparation. I dont wish to worry, so I will push myself not to.

the question therefore in this stage is what can I do to sustain my perparations? Especially when I feel things slipping towards the worst?

I have a faint answer in doing my Job properly. I have been stuck with a video editing software for the last 2 days, but this is frustrating me. What gets to me even more is one such colleagues tall claim of knowing all the ropes of editing and her absolute inability to help me out on this. Really??/

So many ineffectual people working ineffectually for longest periods of time! And we wonder why the work is not good enough.

Note: Very recently one of my directors wrote an email to me which began like this "You inspired me to play with the design... much more interesting than what I was doing :)

I tried to combine your two designs," I was happy that I was able to do that!

Hope India, Hope!

I must confess this, its quite appropriate because I hardly have readers/followers and well it'll be out of my system atleast.

So very recently I attended a motivational seminar as it were. Its been 2 weeks and I thought I'd die with this but I think it must be told atleast for the sake of kindred spirits.

When a reasonably good looking young (early 30's) kind of a guy makes tall claims to 'changing your life if you attend his seminar' I think you should find out exactly what he has to offer.

So I trudged several kilometers, got lost on my way and parked my car in blistering heat to hear this man speak. I tend to observe things around me, the venue of the event was the ISKON temple, now I have heard stories and stories about what goes on there, mind you I am a narrow minded person with exceptionally limited view of things around me, inspite of such handicaps, I decided I would leave my biases outside this. There were two longest of long queues...one for men and one for women...the one for the latter was short and was a delight to be a part of...however it did not really matter because once inside, men women alike were ravenous...guess for what...hope, life change, seizing the day and everything that life is made up of...the one thing that stuck out was there appeared to be more men  in desperate need of this doze, and so many of them were young (in their 20's)...naturally the skewed sex ratio of our country might as well have been the reason.

With due respect to the said man...his intentions are great, and to add to it all...its actually free...there are no after talk offers/packages.

It should suffice to say that at the end of a 2 hour session I felt rather exhausted. His analogies examples did not work to motivate me, strangely he used a term "AASAN HAIN"(its easy) very frequently and this kept ringing in my head for several days to come. I feared some form of subliminal attack on my numerous states of conciousness' had occurred!

Attending this seminar did however quite a few things for me...I realized I dont need anybody to tell me about hope and motivation and things like that. Prehaps something about the fact that life beats you down but you get up and move ahead anyway...or something!

There were sadly a whole bunch of youngsters, people who had exams the next day, had taken off from work to be there...what baffled me was 'why'???

Its a qualitative question, I dont think there could be a fixed answer to this one, it will vary from individual to age groups, to communities as well as sex.

I am certain of the 600 odd who attended his talk, 400 would like to return, go back...please for all those who care to listen...attending and listening to someone else talk of how they overcame their hardships is so passive in its very nature. Your 'problems' will never be the same.

Life like relationships are the same...no two people will have the same story to tell

Go forth, fuck things up and find ways to deal with it. You dont need any motivational talker to do that!

Since I am only subtely speaking against his agenda, perhaps you'd like to still hear him out

http://www.sandeepmaheshwari.com/

NOTE: Any unintended harm or malice is never meant towards the mentioned subject.